So here we are again. It has been just over one year that my Grama Jody passed away from cancer (Bone, Breast, Cervical, Liver, Lungs, and Brain). A few weeks ago we found out that my step-grandma, Katheryn, also has bone cancer. It is like a double grief. It is reopening the exact same grief I had a year ago. They even have the same hospice nurse. I am sad that my grandma is in pain. And while I don't want her to die, I don't her to be in pain anymore.
This pain is also multiplied again, as we lost Katheryn's brother (Uncle Bobby), Katheryn's sister in law, and a cousin all in the past month. They are Basque, a strong people, so that makes it somehow harder to see them go. I don't know why, but you always expect the strong to live forever.
They are very different women. Jody was a tiny woman, barely scratching 4'10". She was strong in spirit, body, and mind. So when she started admitting pain last January, we knew it was bad, and she died 6 weeks after we found out it was cancer. She worked until two weeks before she passed! Katheryn is also a strong woman in spirit and mind, but her body lost it's strength over ten years ago. She has been in pain often over the past decade with broken bones and illnesses.
In both cases, they are the rock of the family. When Grama Jody passed, we were lost. We didn't even know how much we needed and relied on her until she was gone. With Katheryn, she has been hanging on and fighting for so long, it is very hard for the family to let go. I hope we can, so that she can be at peace.
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